I NEED ME BACK(Messed Up)

At this moment, i am in a mess, am not sure what is going on in my life and everything seems to be going to the wrong direction, i need guidance and direction.
this month has had me tossed up and down with emotional changes and this has kept me cracked. i need to get back to myself i need to find me again, i need to get back to who i am. i feel like a part of me has been taken and i do not know who has taken it and i want it back, i want me back, i need me back, it is the worst stage to be in and it is the worst i have been it, guess when change comes without you knowing you kind of loose yourself, i need me back, even as i write this am not really thinking right, two day ago i had allergy attacks and had to be rushed to hospital that night and at one point i though i was going to die, today i had to rush Justine(my cousin) to hospital after she has been hit by a car, this is terrible, i had to rush my sister Sarah to hospital the other day when she came back from school after having an accident adn she got a clot in her head, its crazy my life is crazy right now and i hate it.
one of my friends, my spiritual mum i s leaving the country soon, a friend left yesterday, and everyone around me does not seem to be fine at all, its all in a mess.Both in office and at work am confused, i have school and i can not read with all these things in my mind, i can not study and yet i need to study. i can not wait till i finish with school soon what a relief that will be i will celebrate i will be happy but for now i need to focus one thing at a time.
Am in pain, am grieving all these things scilently who am i supposed to tell? i don't know so i will write it here knowing someone will read and hopefully Pray for me.
I am Messed uP right now........................................:(